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The Year in Numbers: 2025

I did this last year and enjoyed it so much that I thought that I’d just use that post as a template and do it again for 2025! Enjoy!

I track things. It’s something that helps keep me moored and on the path I want to pursue, and also it ticks that little reward-driven box for me – I like that feeling of satisfaction that a checkmark gives me.

I also like following my growth and seeing where I’m letting things slip past me, or where I’m losing interest in something.
So here’s some stats and some things I did that I’m proud of or wish could be a little more impressive… but in general, I’m happy with my numbers. Yay!
If you did more of any of these than me, congratulations! If you did less, then I hope you don’t get comparison envy, because any success is worth cheering.

Writing-related

  • Books published: none
  • Books written: one and one third of a second
  • Books sold: 33
  • Panels I participated in: 10
  • Readings I did: 5
  • Conventions I participated in: 4 [Balticon, Nebula Conference, Flights of Foundry, Write Hive Conference]
  • Events I participated in: 3 [Book Fair at Bel Air, Greater Goods, Baltimore Book Festival SFWA Stage]
  • Newsletters I sent: 9 but some of these were repeats
  • Awards I was nominated for: 11 for A Third Kind of Madness, all in the Indie Ink Awards.
  • Interviews given: 1

Reading

Unsorted list of things I’m proud of this year

Yes, I’m still learning Korean! I haven’t been quite as dedicated as I was last year because, well, reasons–but I’m at the point now where I can follow along with conversations and pick out things that I understand. Not just words, but the general gist of what’s being discussed, though not always, and dependent on who is speaking. Fast speakers or those who speak with satoori can throw me off, but that’s to be expected. I’m also putting together small conversational bits that I deliver to myself in the mirror in the morning, because I’m a dork like that. My vocabulary has definitely grown!

I’m putting together a book all on my own! I mean, I hired an editor because come on. Editors make everything better. [Also my editor Fiona is the best and I love working with her.] Skills I am learning for this: cover art and layout, text layout/interior design. I’ve always done mockup covers for all my books for getting-people-excited purposes, but this one is the first where I’m doing the whole wrap-around. And I’ve done layout before but not for ebooks or books, just ‘zines. So I’m learning some new applications!

I’ve continued to move my career and life along paths that align with my values. I love using The Storygraph for tracking my reading. I’m not responsible for promoting Strong Women–Strange Worlds on Goodreads right now, so I’ve basically cut my usage down there to almost nothing. I’m still using ko-fi but I also added my books for sale here on the website, and I’m looking into expanding to itch.io as well. Unfortunately I haven’t found an alternative to using KDP for publishing that doesn’t have a boatload of its own problems, but I’m still working on that.
Personally, I continue to buy small/local as much as possible. I keep my clothes and alter or mend them as appropriate. I don’t buy a lot of disposable items. I support local, indie bookstores and other retailers. And I continue to donate to worthy causes, write letters to politicians, send critical emails to companies when they betray their users and previously stated values, and support loudly and with my dollars the things and folks I want to make sure stay in the world.

I became the Audience Outreach Coordinator for Strong Women–Strange Worlds. That was a big step! I’ve been a volunteer for a while now, and when they asked if I’d like to take on a committee position I thought about it carefully, then agreed. I knew that taking on a role like that while also trying to maintain my writing career was asking a lot from my body and mind, but I believe in their mission to elevate the voices of women and other underrepresented gender identity authors of science fiction, fantasy, and horror; to highlight stories featuring strong female and non-binary characters; and to share these stories with readers of all ages. As I said above, I want to support the things I want to see in the world, and this is definitely one. /
Speaking of, the first Quick Reads of 2026 is coming up on January 15th–will you be there? It’s a free event and a great way to find new authors to read and hang out with other [often very funny] readers and writers! You can learn more and sign up at https://strongwomenstrangeworlds.weebly.com/

I sold as much merch as I did books this year. That’s been a great way to keep interest in my books alive, let me tell you. It can be difficult to keep a backlist fresh in readers’ minds, which is why you’ll often see authors posting about their previous books on social media, especially if it’s a series of books. Merch can help, and I love making things, so this year I added Maithe mugs and a Maithe tourism tee shirt to my offerings that I make by hand. This year I rehomed a ton of Book pendant necklaces and mushroom earrings. And I made about $25 in donations to Leftover Love, Inc through sales of my Three Ravens Press mugs. In 2026, I’ll be changing all of my merch that comes from Bonfire so that proceeds go to charity. I won’t make a thing from them, and I’ll feel great about it! Look for more fun charity merch in 2026.

I officially won my disability case! I’m quite open about having Crohn’s and how it affects me as a disability, so you might have read or heard me talk about my struggle to be officially recognized as such and be judged eligible for SSDI. It finally happened this year, after years of going through tests, paperwork, questioning, and appeals. [I could write an entire book about this alone] What does this mean for me in the future? It gives me a regular, small income. If I bring in money, that is reported and taken out of that monthly income. I’ll continue to get medical assistance, without which I would eventually die. I have restrictions on some things: for example, if I married my partner, for example, I’d lose benefits because of his income, even though that wouldn’t be enough to support us both. I can’t have much in savings. There are other restrictions. But I do have some stability, and an official recognition of disability, which is huge.
I don’t want to go on too long about this, that’s what my blog Hid and Sick is for, but I did want to mention that it happened and how it impacts my life, because it has a tremendous impact. Hopefully it will open me up to be able to explore creatively without worrying about “but will it sell?” because that’s a death toll for creativity. And creativity is what I’ve got instead of properly working guts.

What about you? What are your numbers, your successes, your reasons to cheer? I want to know!
May 2026 be kind to us all. Life has been challenging and we need each other more than ever. Know that you can always come here for support in your creative endeavors. I’m cheering you on!

Image with text that lists the writing eligible for 2024 awards

Award Eligibility 2024

It’s the season for eligibility posts, and here are my SFFH offerings for this year! I have poetry to add to the mix this time, which makes me very happy as that’s how I started my career.

I had one novel this year:

A Third Kind of Madness is a contemporary/urban fantasy in which shy and insecure photographer Denny stumbles into a relationship with their muse, and discovers that union also comes with capricious elementals, hungry paintings, and threats from other artists who are unhealthily obsessed with Denny’s muse girlfriend.
Published May 2024.

“You can see that everything that you mortals discard eventually finds its way to me and my kin. It travels through the waters of the city to come to rest in the harbor. They’ve put a device now at the end of this channel to collect debris, but the emotions, secrets, and everyday concerns that travel with the trash escape those sorts of traps. And my kind? We hold it all. Those are our treasures.”

I also had three poems, all included in one anthology:

CAW: Poetry by a Murder of Writers invites you into a world shrouded in gothic allure, where every page whispers with the echoes of melancholy mists and velvet hours. This haunting collection pays homage to the literary greats who have long tantalized us with their dark elegance and brooding beauty.
Edited by Stasha Strange and Hyacinth L. Raven.
Published October 2024.

I have three poems in this collection:
⋆ Perilous
⋆ Wings
⋆ Death: A Song

I find this dazzling path confusing.
Let me crawl back to the undergrowth,
To the dusky spaces with crowded trees,
To the call of black birds from the branches.


As always, thank you for your support and love.

Also if you are a reader and enjoyed my work, A Third Kind of Madness is eligible for several categories at Write Hive’s Indie Ink Awards.

Possible categories include

  • Writing the Future We Need: Trans or Nonbinary Representation
  • Writing the Future We Need: Mental Health Representation
  • Writing the Future We Need: LGBTQ+ Representation
  • Writing the Future We Need: Bisexual or Biromantic Representation

Or feel free to choose the ones you feel fit best!

In Sleep You Know Merch For Sale

I’ve been hard at work coming up with interesting and fun goodies for you that are related to In Sleep You Know: A Story of the Eleriannan! When a story touches you and makes a connection, it makes sense that you might want things that remind you of the tale and the unforgettable characters.

One of the things I managed to find, after much searching and negotiations with the local Fae, was a special version of Lucee’s Book. It isn’t quite like hers, because each Fae object is unique, but it is beautiful and magical the same.

There are also beautiful bookmarks to go along with your paperback, or any other book, of course! They feature an image with Merrick, Lucee, and Aisling on the front, and a quote about the book on the back superimposed over a raven in flight.
If you purchase a signed paperback from me, you’ll get one of these included, while supplies last.

https://ko-fi.com/s/be395a8533

What other sort of merch would you love to see and own? Let me know in the comments!

Author Reads Replay!

Here’s the replay of my interview and live reading on the FAE Productions YouTube stream! Fairy Princess Lolly was a fantastic host and thoughtful interviewer, and the questions from the audience were great! I read a chapter from In Sleep You Know, so if you want to hear some of the novel read aloud, this is the place to hear that.

ONE WEEK UNTIL BOOK LAUNCH! Also, you’ve got a little over a week to enter the Goodreads giveaway – enter via the widget in the sidebar!

Come see me at the Virtual Baltimore Faerie Faire

I’m so excited to invite you to the Baltimore Faerie Faire, happening VIRTUALLY this weekend!

It is happening on Gathertown, which is a graphics based, virtual interactive space – it feels a lot like playing an RPG type game! You will be able to make an avatar, then walk around the event virtually to check in on musicians’ performances, do some shopping in the tents of the vendors, and even hang out with some mermaids.

The main faire will be happening between 11am and 5 pm EDT on April 10th, though there are also events happening starting at 7pm on April 9th, including the magickal Faerie Ball – come dressed in your best fae garb!

You can learn more by going to the Facebook event pages:
https://www.facebook.com/events/713128272890567/
https://www.facebook.com/events/128510469211760

And the event will be happening at GatherTown:
https://gather.town/app/FArv3oGRHwjTHtw1/BaltimoreFaerieFaire

What it will look like inside the Virtual Baltimore Faerie Faire!

Navigating GatherTown

This is a pretty easy interface to use, but I thought I’d give you a few pointers to help you feel comfortable!

When you click the link, the first thing you’ll do is create an avatar. It takes just a moment, and there are plenty of visual choices for you! Once you enter the Faerie Faire, take a few moments to wander around and get a feel for movement. Use X to enter tents, and G will make you into a “ghost” so that you can move around without accidentally starting conversations with other Fairegoers or bumping into them.

You’ll note that as you get near people, you’ll be able to see them on video if they have their cameras on, or hear their conversations if their mics are on.

To find a specific person, click on their name in the participants tab on the left, then click “follow” to have your avatar automatically run up to them. Once you find them, you can unfollow. It’s a great way to locate friends!

I’m going to recommend that you do that to my avatar to find my tent! Just find Christiane Knight in the participants, and click follow, and you’ll travel right to where I am. Easy-peasy!

To come inside the Three Ravens Press tent, just walk up to the table and press X and you’ll enter right in! There, you’ll find my website, and if I’m there you can talk to me. I should be there all day Saturday except when I am doing live readings. In fact, if you come to my tent, there’s a good chance you might catch me doing random readings there, too! Expect some chapters from In Sleep You Know!

You can see that there’s a spot with the link on the left, so you can invite others, or get help. You can also see my avatar and my tent. I’m in a nice location next to the statue!

To see ALL the vendors, plus info about the event and photos from previous events, go to: https://baltimorefaeriefaire.weebly.com/

Rooted In Reality – Setting a Fantasy Novel In a Real City

aka: What parts of Baltimore are fiction in your novel, Christiane?

Using a real city as the setting for In Sleep You Know was a fun challenge! I am a firm believer in building off of what I know when it comes to writing – even if it’s Fantasy that I’m crafting. I also believe that Baltimore is a treasure trove of undiscovered magic, often overshadowed by its reputation. [Ask me how I feel about The Wire. I have opinions.]

There was no question in my mind that I would be using Baltimore as the backdrop for where my Fae, the Eleriannan and Gwyliannan, lived. But trying to decide on what version of the city I would build from? That took a bit more thought. When I started writing about these characters originally, it was the late 90s, and the way I saw the city in the story was built on my memories from the 80s and 90s. Looking over the story as the platform for In Sleep You Know, I realized that I needed to unmoor the tale a bit from a specific time in order to give it the feel I wanted. It also meant that I could blend experiences, fashions, music from different eras and have it feel cohesive and timeless.

Some of the places mentioned in the story are based specifically on real-life analogues – the nightclub is definitely based on a well-known club that caters to specific subcultures in Baltimore [one that I DJed at for a while, shhh] – but it also draws from some other clubs with which I’m intimately familiar. I wanted that feeling of familiarity for readers who have haunted those sorts of clubs. Same for the Frisky Bean – if you’ve been to this sort of non-corporate community coffee shop, the kind with comfy chairs and bookshelves piled with tattered paperbacks to read and board games, you will picture it in your mind right away. The Frisky is also built on the memories and experiences of so many coffee shops like it, in Baltimore and other places I’ve lived in and visited.

Photo by Henry Guan on Unsplash

There are other places featured in the book In Sleep You Know that are actual locations, but may not quite resemble the Baltimore of this consensual reality. I talk about the Gwynns Falls area, for example, but I paint the scene with a bit of a muted brush, leaving the exact location unidentifiable. It is absolutely based on a few houses hidden away there, but none specifically. Maithe House is indeed exactly as advertised, but only on the outside. I have a lot of tidbits about The Maithe, but I’m saving them for a future blog post. 😉

The first place we go in ISYK is a party at a big house. Traveling outside of the city, down Falls Rd – which runs from close to where Club Marcada is located in Midtown, almost to the Pennsylvania border – it’s obvious that the house isn’t a place one can just stumble upon, it is off the beaten path. I’ve again softened the border between our reality and book reality when it comes to exact location and the ease of getting there without a vehicle. If you’re in the know and driving around the Greenspring Station to Ruxton Road area, you might find yourself traveling the road that Merrick takes to crash a party.

Both Merrick’s apartment and Lucee’s place are based on places where friends lived, in the Mt Vernon neighborhood. Sousa’s place isn’t too far from there. The pic above shows a little of what that area looks like. It is a great neighborhood for artsy types, though perhaps a little more affordable in the fictional version of Baltimore!

Using a real-life place, even one I’m familiar with, gave me some things to think about before I proceeded. I’ve seen it done really well, and also not quite as well. It can be easy to let the setting overwhelm the story by putting the city’s character and descriptions too far forward. For me, Baltimore is an important part of the tale, but not the most forward part. I wanted it to lurk in the background in some ways – interesting but ignorable in detail until the right time. And of course, it is all about timing!

I can’t wait until you travel to my version of Baltimore, and you get to meet the folks that live there.

Keep tuned for more In Sleep You Know news, coming soon!

Now You’re Not A Baby Doll

So who is this Christiane person, anyway?

So here I am, talking to you like we’ve just run into each other in the halls at a con, or waiting in line to get into a show, or wherever you might see me and feel bored enough to ask a bunch of questions about who I am and what makes me the person I am. Why? [Why not!]

I’ve got a Bio page, but that’s just got the “writer” stuff on it, and I’m a big believer in connection as a full contact sport. No, not like football, more like jumping into the pit at a punk show.

So that’s a great place to start, actually – I DO NOT do sports. I always say: if you see me running, then you should run, too, because something is definitely chasing me! However, I not only love dancing with every fiber of my being, I actually minored in Dance in college. [Theater major, because I am obviously into things just for the money, right?]
I’ve talked at length about how I got into being involved with the Goth/Industrial/Electronica subgenres and built myself a small career as a DJ and promoter for a while that way, so I won’t go through the whole story now. But you need to know that my direct progression involved music and dance in school > discovering the joy of going to punk shows and the freedom of everything it brought > finding alternative dance nights at clubs that gave me the confidence to really pursue the things that give me joy.

I’ve always loved writing, music, and performance. For someone who spent a great deal of time in her own head while growing up, I managed to still excel at being dramatic – to the point where I knew that I wanted a public-facing job when I grew up. I played at being a radio DJ, introducing the 45s I’d play for myself as I recorded my own mixtapes, learning bits of trivia about the bands I liked to “reveal” to the audience. I also made my own dramas and musicals, did my own costuming, and wrote my own scripts, all to be performed by and for myself in my room. [I liked sheets for sweeping togas, capes, and skirts.] And I dreamed about fronting a band, and probably shook the house at inappropriate hours while practicing my vocal stylings. Come to think of it, I still do.

So falling into Theater was obvious, and I pursued that and music and dance, and found myself more and more frustrated as I ran against what I was expected to be, rather than what I am.

Punk was the antidote.

When I discovered punk, I learned that there was a world where it was a lot easier to be who and what I wanted to be. There was still pushback to some degree and plenty of -isms, but the culture was set up in a way that gave me more freedom to speak out against them, and show anger in general. In the 80s, it was still tough to be an angry woman, an individual, a rule-breaker, and not be penalized in every aspect of life. Punk mostly didn’t care. I thrived in that scene, and I grew comfortable in my own skin.

Posing with my beloved friend Faron, 1987ish? Fully feeling myself here.

That led me to finding more Post-Punk and Alternative music and going to clubs that played those genres, too. Suddenly, I was at a show or a club every week, absorbing even more music and being exposed to a wide variety of culture and art, and I loved it all. My outfits got more dramatic, slowly verging into a decidedly Goth aesthetic, which then blended with my everyday look forever. Seriously, I’m still basically wearing the same stuff, just the more casual versions. Long black skirt and band tee, with a hoodie or cardigan and Docs? Yep, that’s me.

And that phase, my friends, shaped everything else in my life. I found the people who appreciated my aesthetic, my words, and eventually the music I wanted to make. I started publishing ‘zines and contributing to others, and I became a small time club DJ around the East Coast of the US, centered in VA/DC/MD.

A lot of In Sleep You Know, my upcoming novel [and the world in where it lives], is fueled by these experiences. It references clubs I went to regularly, music I love, and the subcultures of which I’m a part. It also reflects the wonder I felt when I started coming to the city and discovered a place where I belonged, and all the magic and weirdness I learned to see and accept without question. Merrick Moore, the main character, is in many ways who I was when I first roosted in Baltimore City: a aimless dreamer accepting of the beautiful and odd people randomly met along the way. Someone game to roll with strange happenings, because deep in our heart, that was we always hoped to find.

Me and Merrick, we’re the dreamers here.

In the harshness of daylight, we might have a harder time buying into the weirdness than we did under cover of night. But those experiences changed me, shaped and reinforced my sense of whimsy and wonder and possibility, and gave me a lot of fodder for the things I write about now! And soon, you’ll get to see how they shape Merrick, too. *

If you like reading true tales of my strange adventures that are 100% unvarnished and often ridiculous, let me know. I have so many shareable snippets! Not everything is going to make it into my books, right?


* NotASpoiler: it’s a bit different than how things went down for me.
ps: Post Title is a snippet of song lyric from “Baby Doll” by Ruin, a Philly punk band that meant a lot to me back in the day.

Advice, Criticism, and Knowing Who You Are

Receiving advice and criticism isn’t easy. I like to say you need a Teflon-coated ego if you’re going to put yourself out there in any creative field. And if you’re a sensitive soul [like me, I fully admit it] that can be difficult to achieve. How do you get there?

“Knowing Who You Are” is the key to everything: that’s how I interpret and take in the advice and criticisms given to me in a way that doesn’t break me, and that allows me to actually glean the important, useful parts.

Being able to gracefully take advice and criticism is one of the most important skills that any creative person can possess. As someone who finds herself in creative roles that have thrust me into the public eye over and over, being able to roll with the punches when it comes to how people receive my work has always been a battle, but one worth waging. You just can’t get up in front of people, on *any* platform, and put yourself out there without expecting razzes with the praise. It’s what some people just do. In fact, I recommend preparing yourself for the possibility that the jeers will outweigh the good words! I firmly believe in the idea that it’s easier to be prepared for disappointment with the hope to be pleasantly surprised, than the opposite. Not everyone is going to like or appreciate your work. That doesn’t mean your work is bad!

The trick is to be able to separate valid criticisms from a general “this is not my jam” reaction. Same goes for advice, especially advice that goes against your instincts or raises a pushback reaction. That’s when it’s important to sit with those words for a while, and really take some time to reflect on why they are triggering that response in you.

I’m going to use myself as an example here, because that’s how I roll, and I have no problem sharing my vulnerability and ego weak points. [please do laugh here!]

I threw a piece of writing out there recently to get some editing advice. I read the suggestions returned to me and my heart sank. The editor I was most interested in took my writing and ripped it apart.

Except… they really didn’t. They ripped into it, sure – but not to destroy it, rather in order to point out all the places where mercilessly editing it would tighten it up and make it a better read overall. Was it brutal? Sure, to my ego, for about five minutes. Then I got over myself and paid attention to what was being suggested. Some things I didn’t agree with, but I earmarked them to revisit in a bit while they tumbled around in my head. Other things were “duh” revelations, like a continuity problem here or there, or an overlooked grammar mistake.

After I sat awhile with those suggestions that I didn’t agree with, I went back and re-read with the edits in mind, and with a sincere effort to read the story like it hadn’t been living in my head for a while. Did I end up using all the suggestions? No, I did not – but I did use some of them, and the whole experience caused me to go back and look over the rest of my story again with fresh eyes, and make changes in other places. I came away feeling that my writing was improved, but still felt like mine. It’s still not perfect, and I don’t think I’ll ever be the writer who is 100% satisfied with her work, but that gives me glorious room for improvement, yes?

That’s what I mean when I say “know who you are.” I know what I want in my work. I am pretty confident in knowing my strengths and weaknesses – and I’m also aware that I have both of those that I might not see because I’m too close to the material. That doesn’t make me a bad writer [musician, artist, whatever] – it makes me a human one. I know who I am, what I want out of my work, and what I’m capable of; knowing that gives me the space to allow others to offer words that can help me improve. And knowing who I am also gives me the strength to reject or ignore the criticisms that aren’t designed to be helpful.

Does it always work? Hell no! But keeping grounded in that knowledge can help me weather the worst and keep growing. And that helps me to improve my craft, as well. Win-win.

whats in a name urban fantasy

What’s In A Name: Urban Fantasy

I’ve always written what I consider Urban Fantasy – even before the term became commonplace. It makes sense to me to set my stories in the neighborhoods that I know, because I’ve seen plenty of magic there. And if I know anything, it’s that magic is adaptable!
Wikipedia says of Urban Fantasy:


Works of urban fantasy may be set in an approximation of our world in which fantastic exists secretly or in a world (such as an alternative history) in which it occurs openly (or some combination of the above). Elements such as magic, paranormal beings, other worlds and so on, may exist here. Common themes include coexistence or conflict between humans and other beings, and the changes such characters and events bring to local life are the mainspring.
Many authors, publishers, and readers distinguish them from works of paranormal romance, which use similar characters and settings, but focus on the romantic relationships between characters.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Urban_fantasy

I also might use the term “Low Fantasy” – where magical events “intrude” into the normal world. [Urban Fantasy can be considered a type of Low Fantasy.] I probably wouldn’t, but it’s a term that’s available!

I look for the liminal spaces.

Looking over where the Fantasy genre has changed and morphed, I think I’d be comfortable explaining that my work is more like a classic Urban Fantasy than a lot of the modern types available. My works are about magic and mythos, but also about community and growth – and always some music and subculture, because that’s the heartbeat, the driving force.

As with any label, it’s only as effective as the understanding of what it represents. I want to be clear what I write about, so readers understand what sort of journey they’re signing up for before we depart. Of course, any trip can have unexpected twists and turns – that’s what I’m counting on.

In coming posts in this series, I’ll talk more about names and why & how I choose them. It is a very thoughtful exercise on my part! Look for posts tagged #whatsinaname for more entries with this theme.

The Longest Night

Every season is a chance for renewal.
Every day is a gift of redemption.
Every moment is a secret salvation.
I may dance alone, but I am surrounded by stars.

Give me a minute of wild abandon, more precious than gold… I treasure the random moments, the secret glimpses and stolen seconds in that world that hides between the bricks and mortar of what we accept as solid and real.

I reject your morality, your mortality, every minute of mundane and disappointingly binding concepts that you think you cannot live without.

If only you would close your eyes for five minutes, spin around three times – this would melt away and reveal what you knew as a child… it is all a game. It is fake, and we all agreed to make it our lives – instead of what we really want to do – because we secretly think we don’t deserve better. Because we think we don’t have power. Because we have forgotten how to dream bigger.

Your dreams can become reality, but first you must dare to believe in them – and in yourself.
[C. Knight, 2014]


Yule is a time of hope – seeing the light appear after the longest night of the year. Yule is when we begin to plan for rebirth, to take stock of what we accomplished in the year-passing-away and dream of the seeds we will plant in the Spring. Take time to snuggle in and recharge, to go to ground for a while and plan of what is to come.

May the Light touch your life in every way.